|Hello, all. First off, a quick apology to those of you how might’ve already pre-ordered Flying High for Dec. 14th. Some of you are probably surprised and maybe a little upset that it was on pre-order, but as I’m embarrassed that I’ve had to move and cancel pre-orders in the past and mostly wanted to do so to make setting up links in the backmatter of my other books and promotional stuff easier, I hesitated to make a big announcement about it. As you have probably already guessed, I once again had to adjust the release date. It will be out once and for all on Dec. 26, however, and I’m also working hard to bring you an early Christmas surprise… though given all the wild ups and downs that have been happening in my life lately that lead to me postponing my upcoming releases yet again that I’d been literally in tears over with both anxiety and excitement, I can’t make any promises. |
You might have also noticed that Dec. 26 was originally the pre-order release date for Tangled Love, and probably still appears as such on Amazon as you’re reading this email, since KDP can be pretty slow to update. Long story short (and I promise I’ll give you more details on what’s been going on with me, like I promised in a blog post months back, but the basic version is I now know much of my depression and anxiety stem from ADHD, yay), after a lot of hard deliberation, I decided to yet AGAIN switch the planned release dates of Flying High and Tangled Love. I know, I know, I really need to figure out how to focus on one single writing project long enough to finish it in a reasonable time, but I promise I’m working on it. Like, starting therapy with a new counselor and possibly getting on medication working on it.
So, the final (I hope and pray) and absolute release dates for each book will be Dec. 26 and Jan 9, respectively. And I mean it when I say this was hard, because I’ve been beating myself up over the fact that it’s already been over TWO YEARS since Strictly Business came out, and I’m ashamed of the fact that I’ll now be pushing the release of book three of The Loft series into year 3. I figured I might as well give up and throw the whole thing out before I could stomach doing that, but it is what it is at this point, and I know myself at least well enough to know that I can’t have it done in time for the end of 2020. I hope that those of you who’ve enjoyed Tera and Eric’s story so far are still willing to stick it out for just a few more weeks, because despite how long it’s taken, I am really proud of this latest installment–of how far they’ve come as characters and how far I’ve come in my writing since my first book.
Did I say this was going to be quick? Sorry about that. Anyway, that’s the somewhat abbreviated version of what’s been up with me, and I hope you all aren’t too mad at me and are still eager for the next installments of both of my ongoing series. I will say that I am very hopeful about next year (and yes, I know I’ve said that kind of thing several times in the past), and I have a lot of big plans. And while I am trying to be realistic about things, I do also have reason to believe that things are genuinely turning around for me this time, and that next year I’ll actually be able to put out multiple books. I mean, I guess it helps that I’m always jumping around between projects and I basically have six novels entirely plotted out in my head at any given time…
And I wasn’t kidding when I said there might be a Christmas surprise to look forward to in a few days… the surprise being if I can actually finish it before Christmas! Yay me for having a literally last-minute bright idea to bring a bunch of half-baked and abandoned side projects together for a holiday-themed short story collection when I really needed to be working on one of my two long-overdue books. To be fair to myself, though, I do feel like it was good for my mental health during a period when I’ve pretty much been at rock bottom to take a break from pulling my hair out trying to focus on my main books to write a few side stories featuring my characters that were mostly just for me, but hey, if you guys want to read them as well, that would be amazing.
And just one final note, you might have also noticed that the model stock photos on the covers of High Risk and Risky Business have been switched and were wondering why. Well, I’m guessing a hand lightly cupping the underside of a boob is too risque for Amazon, because the original cover was rejected when I tried to submit High Risk for Amazon ads a few months back. The simplest solution at the time seemed to be to swap it out for the “more innocent” pose on the Flying High cover, and even though I didn’t think the color scheme on the covers looked quite as nice with the new photos at first, it’s kinda grown on me since then. Sorry to anyone who really preferred the look of the old covers.
So, if my holiday shorts collection is ready in time, then you’ll be hearing from me again very soon! And whether or not it is, I hope you all have a happy holiday season and are doing as well as can be expected this year. Take care of yourselves.
Hello, all. Apologies for the lack of updates since my last semi-confessional post, and apologies for not yet having my next book out. I am still on-track to release Flying High by the end of the month, but I don’t want to make any promises I’m not 100% sure I can keep, especially since a number of things are so up-in-the-air with my life at the moment, and I’m still struggling to find my romance-writing mojo again. So, uncovering and maintaining the motivation and inspiration to finish my upcoming books has been a difficult process to work through lately.
However, I have been dabbling in a few related interests of mine to keep my creative muscles limber, and have been considering ways to expand my side hustle as a writer, help out my fellow self-published authors, and make a few extra bucks. So, I now have a section for author services on my website! Currently, I only offer pre-made book covers and audiobook proof listening, but depending on how much free time I have and the interest whether or not people would be interested, I’d like to eventually expand into offering proofreading/copyediting services and more newsletter promo opportunities.
A sampling of my pre-made covers:
So, if you’re an author (or know an author) who’s looking for some eye-catching covers for your new romance book or series, or you’re looking for someone to give your audiobook files a listen to make sure the narration is error-free, hit me up! Also, if you’re interested in having me promote your book in my newsletter as well as on Twitter and Facebook, feel free to reach out via my contact form or email me directly at firstname.lastname@example.org. Currently, I only take on book promos on a case-by-case basis based on my availability and what I think my readers would be most interested in (primarily contemporary, new adult, or erotic romance), and my mailing list and social media following are still small but growing, so keep that in mind. I’m open to either newsletter swaps where you promote a book of mine in return, or a solo promo for $10.
Hi, everyone, I hope you’re all doing as well as can be expected given the fact that it’s 2020. This might seem out-of-the-blue since I’ve barely made an appearance online recently except to occasionally retweet things, but I figured now was as good a time as any to check in and let you all know that I am still alive.
It’s been over two months now since the release of High Risk, and yes, I was hoping to have had my next two upcoming books out by now, or at the very least one of them. I’m really sorry that it hasn’t happened yet and I won’t make any excuses for myself, and as tempted as I am to promise that Flying High will be out in the next week or two and Tangled Love soon after, I’ll honestly just be happy with myself if I get one of those out by the end of the fall, and both of them plus the final book of the Risky Business Trilogy out by the end of the year.
But as of right now, I’m really just trying to take things one day at a time. I hesitate to go into too much detail right now, especially given the fact that so much about my life situation is still in flux right now; sometime perhaps a couple months in the future I’ll come back to it and give you a more detailed rundown of what’s been going on with me, vomit up all the thoughts and emotions that have been building up inside me onto my blog, but I’m just not in the right place to do that yet. What I will say for right now is that I’m going through a moment of personal crisis that I feel like my life has been building up to for quite a while now. A lot of it has to do with my mental health, and all these complicated feelings of being lost and aimless, feeling like a childish loser for not having my shit figured out well into my late twenties, and the shame of putting off some critical decisions regarding my career and the possibility of going back to school out of a combination of anxiety and other reasons that I couldn’t put my finger on.
This personal crisis more or less came to a head recently, and while it’s lead to some really important mental/emotional breakthroughs in my life and I feel like I’m finally, slowly starting to get my life on the track I want it to be on, these breakthroughs have also revealed the fact that I still have a lot more big, scary steps to take in the right direction. In many ways, I feel a huge sense of relief and a new sense of clarity about myself and my life, but that sense of clarity has brought with it an onslaught of confusing, overwhelming realizations about the hard work ahead of me in the coming weeks and months, as well as other, more emotionally draining realizations about things I think I’ve known deep down for a while now that I have to do to truly move forward with my life, but finding the strength and the right opportunity to do with is monumentally hard.
And of course, tied up in all of this is the near-simultaneous revelation that so many of the difficulties I’ve faced since as far back as at least 8th grade may or may not be due to the fact that I might’ve been living with undiagnosed ADHD all this time. I still don’t know for sure yet, as one of the hard things I’ve been putting off for a long time has been going back to therapy (and I know I probably shouldn’t have been OUT of therapy of begin with, but that’s a whole other can of worms). The hell of it is, though, I don’t know if my extreme procrastination of that issue is an ADHD thing, or if it’s just the fact that the thought of opening up about my personal issues to a whole new therapist/counselor exhausts me just thinking about it, or if it’s a little bit of both. And maybe I don’t even have ADHD at all, that it’s just my regular old anxiety talking, that I’m concocting this excuse in my head to make myself feel better for being a lazy, unmotivated deadbeat who’s going nowhere in my life. Or maybe that nasty voice that’s telling me I’m a lazy deadbeat is just my depression telling me to hate myself. After all, no one thought to diagnose me with it before or suggest I might have it… but then again, maybe I was also downplaying those particular symptoms, or attributing them to other issues… I’m just a whole mess right now, ok?
And yeah, for that alone I know it’s obvious that I do seriously need to get that professional help no matter how hard it is to reach out and ask for it, regardless of whether or not I end up with a new diagnosis and potentially new, better methods of coping with it. And yes, I do plan on seeking out a therapist very soon. But with all the other thoughts fighting for attention in my head–applying for jobs, knowing that I’ll be moving sometime in the near future but not knowing exactly where or when, worrying about money and the fact that I practically have none after some high expenses in the past year, possibly applying to grad schools, worrying about the election and the pandemic and my mother’s health issues, AND THEN SOME MORE ON TOP OF THAT–it’s been a little hard to get my priorities straight. And unfortunately at the moment, the priority that’s come out on top has been my job search.
Needless to say, between all that and a few other factors I’ll likely get deeper into in that future blog post, it’s been extremely difficult to focus on writing. And getting into the right emotional headspace to write a romance in particular (or even read one) has been next to impossible, I’m afraid to admit. It’s so hard to put into words right now without getting too deeply into things that I’m not quite ready to talk about, but I’ve just been feeling so alienated from my characters and their emotional journies right now. I want to badly to just dive back in and fully immerse myself in their world and forget my own very unromantic problems, but finding the capacity to do so is a slow and frustrating process, and given all the more pressing concerns taking up room in my brain recently, I think it was ultimately for the best that I took a step back from writing for a couple months.
I really don’t have a good ending for this long-winded, rambling word vomit, other than to apologize, thank you for your eternal patience, and promise you that I haven’t completely lost my romance mojo. A huge part of me is itching to finally release my next book, and although I can’t promise you an exact date, I do want to assure you that Flying High will be out soon. By the end of this month, if I can manage it. If you made it this far into the blog post without your eyes glazing over, thank you so much for listening to me get a few things off my chest, and I’m sorry that so many of the details were so vague. I hope none of what I said was alarming to you; I can assure you that while so many things are up in the air for me right now, I am relatively safe and secure. And I apologize as well if I’ve harmed or appropriated the struggle of anyone who does have ADHD by the things that I’ve said. I’m working through a lot of confusion right now, and if I stepped out of line in any way, I’m truly sorry, and I want to learn how to do better.
Good news, everyone! No, Flying High has not come out earlier than expected. Buuuut… after unfortunately having to be put on hold seemingly indefinitely due to the pandemic and other life circumstances, book two of The Loft, Strictly Business, is now officially in audio!
Hello, everyone. I’m really sorry to make you all mad, but Flying High–as some of you who might’ve pre-ordered the book may already be aware of–will unfortunately not be coming out tomorrow. I really don’t have a good excuse this time, except that in my haste to get the book uploaded on time in the middle of an extremely stressful week, I literally uploaded the wrong manuscript. At least, I’m pretty sure I did, but by the time I realized my blunder, it was too late to go back and check, as it was already in the phase of publishing on KDP when changes can no longer be made.
I thought I might be able to exploit a sorta-loophole the night before release day (meaning, tonight), by uploading the correct manuscript at midnight GMT, or 8:00 my time, pray that by the time it was 12:00 my time the changes went through, and then ask KDP to push the updated content to any readers who had received the wrong version of the book earlier.
Buuuut… it gets worse. I have no idea what I did to deserve such bad luck, but when I went to look for the correct final draft to upload, it turns out that a number of edits I’d made hadn’t been saved, and what I’d thought was the final draft was simply not there. So, after dramatically banging my head on my desk and weeping pathetically for a bit, I really started to panic, and that’s when I proceeded to make more dumb mistakes. First, I sent a desperate email to KDP to ask them to pretty please push back my pre-order’s release date a few days so that I could re-upload the book once I redid those edits. Unfortunately, as it was already past the upload deadline, nothing could be done. Normally, I’d just accept that I’d have to go back to plan A and try to use that timezone loophole to sneak in the new manuscript, but for the past several days I’ve still been incredibly busy and burned out from work and things that are still going on with my family, I was starting to panic that I wasn’t going to be able to make those changes to the final draft again in time.
So, here we are now, with another long-winded explanation you didn’t want, for why a book you probably no longer care to wait for has been delayed for another week. The bright side for me is, I discovered far too late that due to the pandemic, KDP is temporarily relaxing their strict penalties for delaying or canceling pre-orders, so since I asked pretty-please, I am now able to set up pre-orders in the future. But… that still means that you won’t be getting Flying High until August 22. I’m so sorry and so embarrassed that I keep pushing this book back by a week and canceling pre-orders; all I can do is promise you that this is the last time, and hope that you believe me. And another bright spot: for those of you who like audiobooks, production finally just wrapped up on Strictly Business, so it should be coming to Audible soon (though their review process can take anywhere from a couple days to a month, so who knows).
Thank you all again for sticking by me; trust me, I know just how frustrating this is, and if you think this book is no longer worth the wait, I completely understand and wouldn’t blame you at all. But if you don’t mind hanging around for a little bit longer, I promise you you’re in for a fantastic continuation of Kiera and Caleb’s story.
Well, I promised you my thoughts on the movie that briefly took Netflix by storm two months ago, and if you were wondering what I was referring to on Twitter last month, now you know.Continue reading
Hello, my lovely readers! I hope you’ve been doing well the last few days. Thanks so much for hanging in there while my attention from finishing up Flying High. It’s been a rough and stressful week so far and it’s not over yet, but my family member that was going through a health crisis is doing better and things in general are starting to settle down.
But to tide you over until Flying High officially comes out next Friday, how about an exclusive excerpt?
Hi, everyone! Just another quick update. After some serious thought, I’ve decided to give myself an extra window of safety and postpone the release officially until August 14th. I apologize that this is a few days later than what I initially said it might be in my earlier blog post, but I genuinely think this is for the best. I have a lot on my plate right now and I would be devastated if risked screwing up this book that I’ve worked so hard on for way too long as it is by pressuring myself to put it out before I’m 100% sure I’m ready. And as I’m not sure how things will be going with me for the rest of the week, hopefully that extra six days will give me some room to breathe.
Apologies for being so vague about what’s going on; I tend to think of myself as a pretty private person, and I’m never quite sure about how much about my personal life to share on my author platform. I don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable, or worry that I’m putting too much information about myself or my loved ones out there that they might not be comfortable with being shared. I really hope I’m not making this sound scarily serious, please don’t worry about me. I will say that someone close to me is experiencing a health crisis (not COVID related), and I’m not sure yet how things will pan out over the next few days. All I know is that I can’t devote the attention and energy to this book required to have the final manuscript uploaded and ready to go in less than 24 hours from now, as I would have to to keep my original August 8th release date.
So, while that pre-order unfortunately had to be canceled, I did luckily have a back-up pre-order set up that was initially supposed to be for the next book. So you do still have a chance to order the book before Aug. 14th for $2.99 on Amazon and Barnes and Noble, and the book will still be available at that price on all retailers for a week afterward as well.
Thank you all so much again for being patient and putting up with the delay. Hope everyone is doing well this week. See you all again soon.
Hello, everyone. Sorry I don’t have better news for you all, but I wanted to give you a heads up that the release of Flying High that was originally scheduled for this Saturday (Aug. 8th) may or may not have to be delayed for a few days. Something personal has come up that I have to prioritize, and although I’m trying as hard as I can to have the final draft of the book ready to upload before the Amazon pre-order deadline tomorrow evening (Aug. 4th), I’m not 100% confident I’ll be able to make it happen. I apologize to all of you who may have pre-ordered the book already; if it ends up not going live on the 8th, I can promise you that it will still be available for its pre-order/release week price of $2.99 when it does come out, which should be no later than Aug. 11th. For those of you who might not typically pre-order books, Amazon does not charge for it until the book is delivered on release day, so if it does end up being canceled, you will not have to pay twice if you still choose to buy the book when it does come out. Also, a few of you might have pre-ordered it early on before I decided to drop the release price from $3.99 to $2.99, so in case it does end up going live on time, I apologize as well that you ended up paying more; that was poor planning on my part.
Again, thank you all for your patience with this. I can at least promise those of you who’ve been around for a while that this won’t be another Loft series situation where I leave you hanging for 2 years for a sequel. I will admit that I did fumble this planned back-to-back release a bit, getting overconfident that since this was originally one book split into two, I could easily have book two out in a super short amount of time. And things were actually going great until yesterday.
Again, I just want to reiterate that there is a chance that I could get it uploaded in time, but I don’t want to overextend myself when there are other, more urgent things dividing my attention, and I don’t want to deliver an inferior product to you. I made an aggravating mistake with High Risk and ended up uploading a draft that hadn’t been fully edited initially, and I don’t want something like that to happen again. Thank you all for understanding while I deal with this emergency. I’m still very much looking forward to sharing the next chapter of this story with you, and I hope you don’t mind waiting a few extra days.
Good news, everyone! At long, looooong last, High Risk is finally a reality! It’s been a wild and nerve-wracking few days for me getting ready for this book to go live, and after so long I can’t believe it’s finally here. I want to laugh and cry and maybe throw up just a little from the agony and ecstasy of waiting to see if people will love or hate my book.Continue reading